Long time passed by since I’ve written here. Meanwhile I made 5 exams and failed one, visited Ufa and celebrated New Year there, met old and new friends, spent time with family and met my class-mates after 5 years. Unfortunately, couldnt stay there longer, but realised one thing: wanna feel self-confident – meet your classmates. Strange, but people really almost didnt change, enjoyed the time with them a lot,thank you Katya for organising this event for us ;)
Still the time was spent by drinking gluewein with Irka, champaign with sis, wine with mum and other winter activities like fireworks, tubings and skates. Payed also a lot of time and preparing to Austria trip, booking free Aeroflot ticket with Aeroflot bonus-card (little commercial) and other stuff.
On the way to Austria decided to check candidates list, 5 people for my position, 2 of whom were from AIESEC in Austria, still let me somehow doubt in my ambitious decision and were keeping me from going there (not to Austria, for confrence for sure), but Lina and Tony (great motivators) made me to take the decision to go and believe that I am cool.
My trip had 4 objectives, one of which wasnt met, I mean elections. So, with the strong believing in my ability and other stuff (had a long list of them) I went to National Conference AIESEC in Austria to run for VP there, took austrian train for the 1st time in my life, and after 5h was in Vienna, met really nice people there, especially Julia, their VP TM, Mohcine, our chair and Alexa, who was running for my position. After 1st day of being there, I realised that it is probably not the place where I have to be, and that besides me, there are 2 people here who really earn to take this position and I am just random person here (although very cool). During the MCP speach and party, wanted just get up and take 5h train back, to the place where I was wanted and waited for, the wish was really strong, but the word “challenge” stuck deep in my head and I was repeating: Come on, take your challenge, and tomorow you can return home. All people were really friendly but not a single one to whom I could trust, lay on shoulder hug, and share how much I was worring that evening and night, partied till 2, slept till 5, and 4h repeated my speach and got prepared, one hour stanidng in front of plenary, after that went back to my room, packed in everything ready to leave (after that thought : perhaps, I will be elected and will have to stay 1 day more for selections talks and party), then long 6h of waiting for the announcement, more of being tired than of expecting result, then already known feeling to me of staying dry in my head, and wet in the eyes, train to Innsbruck with 2 changes, to take challenge – done, and happy me in the place where I wanted to be the whole weekend through.
Happiness didnt last long, as me and Erkan, who supported me in applying, that is really strange, really lack communicating skills, then 24h of quarells followed, finished with my complaints to his mum (like kindergarden but still), packing my luggage, ready to leave and his wise proposal to go skiing, which really heals...
This year I really learnt to take challenges and strive for more, as since I torn my ligament in my feet 5years ago, I never tried jumping on skies again, skiied in the easiest tracks, just enjoying the process, and this park where we went I like for less people, good lifts, and easy tracks, which I know very well as ski there since 4 years, however, this time started to discover other tracks, going to red ones (which are more difficult), started jumping and wanted more... Got really a lot of adrenaline and also this pleasant feeling... Skiing really excites but at the same time calms down...
Tried a lot to contribute in the development of our relations with Erkan, really having strange times, one day paradise, the other is hell, still paradise is overcoming, and whatever happens, after 15 min wanna be again with him... Yes, we changed, changed a lot, and probably it’s even my fault (or initiative), but still... Postponed wedding.... Now am already thinking what for I did that... However... He’s coming in 20 days and we have finally common vision of our future ;) Really enjoyed time with him, and I really do love him...
So my trip was finished by a big shopping tour (winter sales forever) and this post in the airbus A-320.
